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Okay, so. We've had two urns so far since I first announced that the hand-drawn comic Kakuna Wars was going to be a thing. But sometime during the second urn, my scanner broke.

This does not mean that Kakuna Wars is cancelled; however, it does mean that a change in tactics is going to be required. As you may have noticed, the reason I switched from screencap comics is because there just aren't enough screencaps in the world to depict what it is I'm trying to depict. Therefore, to enjoy the hopefully riveting storyline I have planned for Kakuna Wars, the whole lot of you are going to have to read words.

Lots and lots of words.

Each chapter of Kakuna Wars will still be posted on DeviantART, as that is where The Gatekeepers has been hosted and it's only fair for me to keep all of my Anniversary Red lore in the same place. And, yes, I'm still at work trying to balance the several other lore projects I've been working on all at the same time, so there's that. BUT... Kakuna Wars chronologically takes place before all that (well, except for my somewhat squicky Red, Gold, and Green spin-off in which the protagonist is physically worse off than CanisAries' edgy Red, and that's all I can say without having to tag this post for mature audiences), so my priority is to finally, FINALLY, catch up with myself on Anniversary Red lore.

Now, if you'll excuse me, I need to go do a thing.
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If you live anywhere near the Cobb County area of Georgia and you're looking for a pet, please check out their animal shelter. The shelter is getting close to overcrowded, and some of the puppies and kittens will need to be put down if they don't have enough room for them.

Myself, I can't really do much because my house is already full of people and animals. If we got any more pets, they'd outnumber the humans in my house, and they might stage a revolution. But I am praying that all these animals find good and loving homes.

www.11alive.com/news/local/she…

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In other news, even if you can't adopt a pet of your own for various reasons, you can still help animals by donating money to help fund an animal hospital that a friend of a friend from the Twitch Plays Pokemon subreddit works at. This hospital is having serious problems raising enough money to care for the animals it takes in, and every little bit will help.

www.gofundme.com/2atuumk

If you want to learn more about just what the hospital is struggling with, the friend of a friend wrote up an explanation (warning: contains disturbing and heartbreaking medical content):

www.asianfanfics.com/blog/view…

Thank y'all, and God bless you all!
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I'm just going to say, shoutout to Pfaccioxx for being a bro and helping me brainstorm ideas for Yertle's character design in Kakuna Wars.

If you'd like to be a fly on our creative process wall, check out the Reddit discussion thread we're currently in: www.reddit.com/r/twitchplayspo…

Thank you, and stay safe. God bless you all!
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This is a public service announcement funded by Eureka Trollcat's Common Sense Department:

If you want to protest against police brutality in an area that you believe to be prone to police brutality, don't be an idiot.

Blocking highways with your protest will ruin your cause's case in two very severe ways:

1. You'll tick people off. Yes, black lives matter, but black lives also want to use the highway to get to their jobs just like every other person with a job wants to do. And on the occasion that that job happens to be in an emergency room with lives of any color on the line, it's even more inconsiderate. People tend not to think highly of people who inconvenience them, and aren't as likely to be willing to listen to what they have to say. I mean, when was the last time you got stuck behind a guy who was driving really slowly for no good reason when you were late for work and thought, 'Man, I'm really glad I got the chance to read this guy's bumper stickers'?

2. Your blocking the streets will mean that somebody whose job it is to keep the streets from being blocked will have to step in and clear you out. Guess who this means? The police. And if the point of your protesting is to show the world what police brutality looks like, well, I suppose that might work in your favor, except that people really don't have much sympathy for people who inconvenience them by blocking streets.

In short, not only will blocking the streets make your side look bad, but it will get your side less sympathy when the very police that you're protesting have to come and, appropriately or otherwise, do their job.

If I had any better ideas for a protest, I'd share them. But just because I can't think of a good idea on something doesn't mean I can't recognize a bad idea on something when i see it.

Also: #BlackLivesMatter, #BlueLivesMatter, and #AllLivesMatter. And there's nothing wrong with saying any of these things, because it's all true. 

God bless you all. Stay safe.
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Now I want a Mega Corsola that bursts into "bloom" with "flowers." Maybe with a Grass-type added? Although Sudowoodo makes do as a Rock-type...
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There has been a lot said about love today, and a lot said about hatred. But it seems to me that no one can really agree on what love really means.

So what is love, then, to me, in light of this tragedy?

Love is caring for someone even when you disagree with them.

I think we can all agree that shooting up a gay nightclub is not loving behavior. I think we can also agree that donating blood to survivors IS loving behavior.

But what is the world to make of the Christian that believes where the Bible says that homosexuality is wrong, but prays for Orlando and donates blood to the victims? Can one claim 'homophobia' (a term which confuses fear with hatred and is often used on those who have neither) on those who disagree with a person's lifestyle choices but will still act to help and protect that person?

What are those that claim homophobia to do when disagreement doesn't equal hate?

Disagreement has never been directly equivalent to hatred. And those who don't understand this -- those who are eager to claim homophobia when neither fear nor hatred of any human being is on the line -- they also need to be treated with love, not hatred. Those who are conditioned to fear those who disagree with them need to be shown what makes a good Samaritan good.

We so often focus on the Good, but so little focus on the Samaritan.

It wasn't that the good Samaritan agreed with the injured Jew. Jews and Samaritans in Jesus's day wouldn't even share water together, and Jesus knew it. He'd sat at the well with a Samaritan woman who'd slept with half a dozen folks (at least), and while He knew exactly what she'd done, He still offered her the living water of salvation, the same water He offers to all of us.

What made the Samaritan good was that he helped the injured Jew.

As Luke 10:25-37 states:

25 On one occasion an expert in the law stood up to test Jesus. “Teacher,” he asked, “what must I do to inherit eternal life?”

26 “What is written in the Law?” he replied. “How do you read it?”

27 He answered, “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind’; and, ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’”

28 “You have answered correctly,” Jesus replied. “Do this and you will live.”

29 But he wanted to justify himself, so he asked Jesus, “And who is my neighbor?”

30 In reply Jesus said: “A man was going down from Jerusalem to Jericho, when he was attacked by robbers. They stripped him of his clothes, beat him and went away, leaving him half dead. 31 A priest happened to be going down the same road, and when he saw the man, he passed by on the other side. 32 So too, a Levite, when he came to the place and saw him, passed by on the other side. 33 But a Samaritan, as he traveled, came where the man was; and when he saw him, he took pity on him. 34 He went to him and bandaged his wounds, pouring on oil and wine. Then he put the man on his own donkey, brought him to an inn and took care of him. 35 The next day he took out two denarii and gave them to the innkeeper. ‘Look after him,’ he said, ‘and when I return, I will reimburse you for any extra expense you may have.’

36 “Which of these three do you think was a neighbor to the man who fell into the hands of robbers?”

37 The expert in the law replied, “The one who had mercy on him.”

Jesus told him, “Go and do likewise.”


I repeat: Love is caring for someone even when you disagree with them.

Not caring about. Caring for.

Anyone can care about someone. It doesn't take any effort to have a very strong feeling in any direction. What takes effort is caring for someone. Caring for someone means action. If you say you have love but you don't show it, what good is that love? 

My calling as a Christian is not to point fingers of condemnation whenever a tragedy happens. My calling is to love.

If love can't care for those we disagree with, then it's not love. If love is only shown to people who fit any set of standards -- even God's own standards -- then it's not God's love.

God loves us regardless. And He calls us to love regardless.

"I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance." Luke 5:32.

If I don't show the love of God to those I disagree with, then I'm not really showing God's love to begin with.

I can't donate blood (I don't live in Orlando, and I'm medically ineligible), but I can and have shared information online regarding blood donation. While blood banks at Orlando are currently full, more blood will be needed in the coming days, so those of you who have yet to donate but intend to should wait a few days before doing so. If you can't provide blood for medical reasons, I suggest you research to see if your local blood drives are accepting food donations, as draining blood sometimes causes physical weakness/dizziness in donors (I speak from personal experience -- while I can't donate, I have had several blood tests within the past few years, and once nearly passed out). Also, be aware of the restrictions on blood donation and research, research, research to ensure that you are eligible for blood donation and that your blood donation will go through the proper channels to where it is needed the most.

Also, pray. An act of terror is an act of terror, regardless of who it affects.

#PrayForOrlando
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Ladies and gentlemen, if you want to find out what any highly controversial bill actually says, read it.

If you want to protest the content of a bill, then make sure you know what's actually in the bill first. By reading it.

Yes, I am aware that legalese is a terrifying language. It is, it really is. But it is because legalese is such a terrifying language that not everyone who says they've read the bill will actually be able to tell you straight out what the bill actually says.

Which is why, if you want to know what a bill says, you need to read it for yourself.

If you need an explanation of anything in said bill, don't be afraid to ask for one. But what matters is that you fact-check what people say about said bill, before you protest it.

Doesn't matter what kind of bill it is -- whether it's about one group or another, or if it's SOPA, or if it's anything else. Don't protest something you don't understand.

And speaking of Bills, I'm currently drawing the panels for the next comic in The Gatekeepers, and I'm discovering that Misty isn't really as hard to draw as I thought she would be, now that I've figured out how her hair works. Just FYI.

Thank you, and God bless you all.
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The following text is taken verbatim from a petition on BeHeardProject.com: beheardproject.com/genocide?ut…
  • Outside the gates of the Dachau concentration camp, scripted on a memorial commemorating the millions of lives lost in the Holocaust, are the words "Never Again". Yet, modern history is haunted by acts of brutal violence from the mass killings in Kosovo, Cambodia, and Burundi to the genocides in Rwanda and Darfur. American leaders continue to vow repeatedly "Never Again"; yet repeatedly fail to stop genocide.
  • As recent as April 2012, President Obama announced the establishment of the Atrocities Prevention Board proclaiming, "Preventing mass atrocities and genocide is a core national security interest and a core moral responsibility of the United States of America." Yet today, the Obama Administration remains reluctant to designate the Islamic State's (ISIS) atrocities against Christians and other religious minorities in Iraq and Syria as genocide, reserving a possible "genocide" designation solely for the Yazidi community. While it is unequivocal that the Islamic State has unleashed atrocities rising to the level of genocide against Yazidis, it is no less true for Christians and other religious minorities.
  • Presidents of the past have made proclamations similar to that of President Obama, yet they too failed to act in the face of genocide. In 1979, President Carter, having ignored the mass killings in Cambodia, swore, "Never again will the world stand silent...fail to act in time to prevent this terrible act of genocide." Five years later, President Reagan similarly swore, "I say in a forthright voice, Never Again!" In 1991, President George H.W. Bush, after a visit to Auschwitz, was moved, as he described, "with the determination not just to remember but also to act." Running against President H.W. Bush in 1992, Bill Clinton campaigned, "If the horrors of the Holocaust taught us anything, it is the high cost of remaining silent and paralyzed in the face of genocide." Yet during his Presidency, President Clinton apologetically admitted, "We did not act quickly enough after the killing began [in Rwanda]. . . . We did not immediately call these crimes by their rightful name: genocide." After the Clinton Administration failed to intervene in Rwanda, Susan Rice, the current U.S. National Security Advisor, said: "I swore to myself that if I ever faced such a crisis again, I would come down on the side of dramatic action, going down in flames if that was required." And yet history continues to prove that American leaders repeatedly fail to count the cost of inaction and apathy in the face of genocide.
  • Samantha Power, the current U.S. Ambassador to the United Nations, wrote in her book, "A Problem from Hell": America and the Age of Genocide, that "The United States had never in its history intervened to stop genocide and had in fact rarely even made a point of condemning it as it occurred." Through careful study, she debunked the argument that U.S. leaders were unaware of the horrors as they were occurring against Armenians, Jews, Cambodians, Iraqi Kurds, Rwandan Tutsis, and Bosnians during the past century.
  • Yet in the face of an ongoing genocide at the hands of Islamic jihadists in Syria and Iraq, U.S. leaders are faced with whether "never again" will carry any meaning. To date, the United States' response seems similar to genocides of the past century: shamefully inadequate.
  • The word "genocide" was coined by Raphael Lemkin, a Polish Jew who made it his life's work to see that the United Nations make genocide the subject of an international treaty. Through his work, the Convention on the Prevention and Punishment of the Crime of Genocide became international law on December 9, 1948. It took the United States nearly 40 years, under President Reagan in November 1988, to ratify the treaty. This is despite Senator William Proxmire taking to the Senate floor every day it was in session for 19 years to urge ratification of the U.N. convention. During the 19-year-delay, Senator Proxmire spoke about the deaths of a million Nigerians in the Biafran War, the murder of more than a million Bengalis in Pakistan, the Tutsis murdering more than 100,000 Hutu in Burundi, and the killing of nearly two million Cambodians at the hands of the Khmer Rouge.
  • But despite implementing the Genocide Convention, since 1988 over 800,000 people were slaughtered in the Rwanda genocide and hundreds of thousands more perished in Bosnia. During these tragedies, the U.S. Government seemed more preoccupied with avoiding labeling the violence as "genocide" - and thus triggering its obligation to respond - than actually preventing deaths.
  • So why is the U.S. Government so hesitant to label the Islamic State's atrocities against religious minorities in Iraq and Syria genocide? Because doing so would require it to act.
  • A declassified Department of Defense paper dated May 1, 1994 reveals that during the Rwandan genocide—after an estimated 300,000 Rwandans had already been killed-government officials warned against designating the atrocities in Rwanda as genocide because doing so would force the U.S. Government to act. More specifically, the discussion advised "Be Careful.  Legal at State was worried about this yesterday-Genocide finding could commit USG to 'do something.'"
  • What will the annuals of government documents reveal when future Americans look back on the United States' response, or lack there of, to the mounds of evidence that the Islamic State conducted genocide against the Christians, Yazidis, and other religious minorities in Iraq and Syria? Will history reveal a similar stain on the U.S. Government's inability to act on behalf of those who are mercilessly slaughtered?
  • The U.N. Genocide Convention defines genocide as acts committed "with the intent to destroy, in whole or in part, a national, ethnical, racial or religious group." These acts can include killing, causing serious bodily harm or mental harm to members of the group, deliberately inflicting conditions of life calculated to bring about the physical destruction (e.g., denying the group basic necessitates, destroying properties, etc.), imposing measures intended to prevent births within the group (e.g., killing of the male population while forcibly converting and/or raping the female population), or forcibly transferring children of the group to another group (e.g., selling the children of the religious minorities in sex and labor markets).
  • Modern technology no longer allows world leaders to claim ignorance of the Islamic State's genocidal acts. The intent element of genocide is easily satisfied by the Islamic State's stated ideology to eliminate all individuals who do not conform to its interpretation of Islam-to eradicate those whom it considers infidels. Some claim that the option to pay the "jizya" or tax places the atrocities against Christians outside the definition of genocide. However, as Nina Shea, an expert on religious persecution, correctly asserts "the payment of jizya, is a ruse, for the tax is raised until it becomes unpayable and property and lives are taken after all. Hence, last summer, Mosul's bishops chose exile for their communities, rather than attend an ISIS meeting to learn of its jizya terms." Furthermore, the Islamic State made its intent very clear when it warned Christians in a video, "You will not have safety, even in your dreams, until you embrace Islam."
  • Significant video and first-hand evidence also exposes the Islamic State's actions sufficient for a finding of genocide against Christians and Yazidis, and other religious minorities in Iraq and Syria who refuse to conform to its radical definition of Islam. The Islamic State has intentionally destroyed large Christian communities, churches, monasteries, and homes. The Islamic State marked the properties of Christians with the Arabic letter "N" calling for complete eradication of the Christian community in Iraq and Syria either through death or threat of death. According to Canon Andrew White, the Vicar of Baghdad, the Islamic State has mercilessly beheaded and crucified Christian and Yazidi children. Researchers have found mass graves of Yazidis systematically targeted and slaughtered by the Islamic State. The Islamic State released a pamphlet in 2014 describing how its affiliates could take women and girls as young as nine years old into sex slavery. Once in captivity, these women and girls are often forcibly converted and expected to raise any children born from their rapists under the Islamic State's strict ideology.
  • These acts of rape and other sexual crimes against women and children, accompanying mass executions targeting males of these religious minorities, are nothing less than intentional acts of genocide. We can no longer as a nation hide our head in the sand and claim we are unaware of the evidence-we are reminded of it daily as a panoply of evidence floods our e-mail inboxes, social media pages, and TVs.
  • Designating the atrocities as genocide is an important step to unlocking a robust tool kit of options for both preventing further genocide and punishing the perpetrators of genocide. Under law, the designation would legally obligate the United States to "prevent and punish." We should not fear this legal obligation; instead we should be a nation that leads by example.
  • Designating the atrocities in Syria and Iraq as genocide does not equate to a legal obligation for military intervention, though often prevention does require some sort of military force. Potential actions include but are not limited to the United States taking steps to have the U.N. Security Council designate the atrocities as genocide, rallying support for troops in the United Nations and other countries to protect the innocent, threatening prosecution of perpetrators through international tribunals, using intelligence assets to block recruitment tools and calls to violence over the Internet and radio waves, freezing foreign assets of perpetrators, and imposing travel bans for the perpetrator and supporters of the Islamic State.
  • The designation also allows the United States to bring an action for intervention before the U.N. Security Council, which in return can authorize use of military force and other diplomatic, humanitarian, and strategic measure to address the crisis.
  • It is critical that the United States lead by example designating the Islamic State atrocities as genocide for the Christians, Yazidis, and other religious minorities in Syria and Iraq. The cost of inaction and apathy in the face of genocide is too high. We must ensure that we no longer promise "Never Again" while simultaneously turning a blind eye to genocide. The lives and ancient cultural heritage of Middle East Christians, Yazidis, and other religious minorities depend on our doing so. As Samantha Power, the current U.S. Ambassador to the United Nations, once said: if genocide is "not the U.S.'s problem, it's nobody's problem."
  • To the hundreds of thousands of Christians suffering the Islamic State's genocide, we can make the difference. It is our sacred responsibility to act. At the ACLJ, we are aggressively advocating on Capitol Hill and across the globe. We just filed a critical amicus brief at the European Court of Human Rights to protect Christians fleeing this genocide.
  • Now, we are working in Congress, demanding President Obama and the U.S. State Department recognize the atrocities the Islamic State is committing against Christians as genocide and provide them critical legal protections. Add your name to our petition today.
The petition is here: beheardproject.com/genocide?ut…

God bless you all. Please pray that this petition succeeds, and that the U.S. government (and all others) acknowledge that genocide IS occurring against Christians in the Middle East, that it has to be recognized and condemned, and that actions have to be taken against it!
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She's doing better now, and she's thanked me and all her friends for supporting her when she was feeling suicidal. I think she's still going to need some encouragement in the coming months, and I'll do my best to be there for her when she needs me, but for now, she's safe.

I'm so glad.
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Her name is RiverSong, on PokeHeroes.com, and I'm worried about her. I've been constantly praying for her since I found out. If you're the praying type, please pray for her as well.

This is her profile on PokeHeroes: pokeheroes.com/userprofile.php…

Once again, if you pray, please pray for her.
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So, to those of you who don't know, Siskit left a lot of her stuff in Morocco and says that she's engaged to her boyfriend and is moving to Morocco permanently. And when she got home, she found out she'd lost her job because her boss (who has a track record of being a weasel) claims that she "quit without warning," on a day in which it's clearly shown by her schedule and paycheck that Siskit DID put in work that day. So there's a hassle there.

Also, Brokit has been getting pretty belligerent towards me, putting me down, mocking me, being rude, and claiming that nobody likes me. He even interrupts me when I try to talk to Momcat about the situation, and then keeps interrupting me (angrily) while I'm trying to tell him that he shouldn't interrupt when I'm talking to someone else.

Brokit claims that everybody hates me, which isn't true. He's been pretty angry at me after the meltdowns I've had this month (although my new medication has helped me a lot since the Thanksgiving freakout), and he accuses me of treating everyone like dirt. I pointed out (calmly, i think, if I do say so myself) that he's treatingme like dirt, and he said, "That's because you ARE dirt."

I responded to that with, "All humans are descended from Adam, good sir, and Adam was made of dirt."

And then I walked away and left it at that.

I think I'm getting smarter.

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While everyone prays for Paris, including myself, we need to also remember to pray for the nations in the Middle East where terror exists every single day.

We need to pray for those citizens in the Middle East, regardless of their nationality, that seek peace among the chaos of war.

We need to pray for the citizens used as human shields by their own governments, and for the soldiers fighting those governments that are faced with the moral corundum of fighting military outposts placed illegally in populated civilian cities.

We need to pray for the souls of those accused of war crimes, and we need to pray for the souls of those who get away with war crimes.

We need to pray that God will open the eyes of every major and minor power in the Middle East to turn to Him for guidance, and to seek peace and pursue it.

We need to pray for peace.

Yes, I stand with the Jews' right to exist peacefully in their homeland in the Middle East. Absolutely. But I also stand with Palestinian Christians and their rights to exist peacefully. I stand with peace-seeking Muslims, although I am not a Muslim. I stand with whoever seeks peace within the middle of war, regardless of their ethnicity and religion. I stand with every single decent-minded human being in the Middle East and the rest of the world that just wants this bloody conflict to be over.

Regardless of my political views, I cannot in good conscience see any one side as unilaterally blameless, even America's own, for we are all human. All sides make mistakes. Not all sides try to do the right thing. But all sides are human, and made up of humans that Jesus Christ died to save from Hell. And all sides, whether righteous, evil, or confused, need our prayers more than ever before.

It is easy to point fingers at one side or another, to use collectivist terms to paint one side as killers and another as martyrs. I will not use this forum to pick an argument with people who don't even know what it's like to live in the Middle East. My sister is visiting in Morocco, staying a second week due to the terror attacks in France cancelling her changeover flight.. My family's friends live in Israel. The Middle East is closer to me than I probably even realize. I don't want an angry flame war on the Internet any more than I wanted hostages to be taken and executed in France, or any more than I want a bus or a school to explode in *any* area of the Middle East, regardless of who shoots first.

If we want peace in the Western world, we must pray for peace in the Eastern world.

I pray that my troubled, disjointed words from a woman like me that struggles with mental instability will be used by God to strike a chord in some other person's heart, and perhaps even change a life. If a butterfly flapping its wings can become the first few gusts of a gale storm, then by the grace of God, let me be that butterfly.

"And Abram said unto Lot, Let there be no strife, I pray thee, between me and thee, and between my herdmen and thy herdmen; for we be brethren." Genesis 3:8 KJV

Whoever you are out there, God bless you. ALL of you.

#PrayForParis #PrayForPeace #PrayForTheWorld #PrayForTheWholeWorld #PrayForTheMiddleEast #PrayForIsrael #PrayForPalestine #pray 

EDIT: On this subject, my friend Redwings1340 has sent me an interesting article about an interview with an imprisoned ISIS member, which is very revealing. It is also a reminder that even America's mortal enemies are still human, and that America itself is not innocent. www.thenation.com/article/what…
Okay, so.

The Gatekeepers/Revenge of the Fish is NOT cancelled, in case any of you were wondering. I've had my computer time greatly limited over the past month, but hopefully I should be able to resume work on the series within the next week or two.

Not much to say besides this, but keep your chins up! God bless!
Right now I'm feeling kind of down, having a crisis of conscience because of the various occult-originating themes present in Pokemon games (ghosts, hypnosis, yoga, psychic powers, fortelling the future, "gods," etc.) and trying to discern whether it all being fantasy anyway is enough of a safeguard from the feeling like I as a Christian am endangering souls by playing it...

It just feels like it's too much occultism layered in cute.

It's been bothering me for over a year now. Possibly several years. The thing is, I feel like there are two influences speaking to me, God and the devil, and I can't tell which one is which. I know that God doesn't sound like the devil, and that the devil will try to sound like God, so that gives me a hint.

I feel like the devil is levying accusations at me, trying to blur the lines between fantasy and reality.

I know there are some occultic themes in Pokemon. Not in ALL of Pokemon, but in a large enough portion of it, particularly the psychic and ghost types. But I also know that Pokemon has never been a one-on-one representation of reality, and includes things that have never been real to begin with and never will be, so it makes me wonder how much stock people really put into it. I also have Christian friends who play Pokemon and take part in my Pokemon RP with a clean conscience, so there's that.

But I'm worrying that playing Pokemon may be negatively affecting my discernment.

My family has a history of schizophrenia, and a close relative was just hospitalized for it. So I'm worrying that I may be losing my mind over the Pokemon issue, over trying to convince myself that there aren't demons following me around over it, or perhaps it's the demons that are trying to convince me. But in the meantime, I'm still going crazy here, with worry, guilt, and concern.

Right now, I'm praying God gives me a miracle, clarity of mind, and lets me see how things REALLY are here. I've made such wonderful friends in the Pokemon community, and some of them are Christians as well. I've wondered about that -- how some Christians seem to take fantasy better than others. C.S. Lewis and J.R.R. Tolkien, for instance, studied mythology and used aspects of it in their famous books. My parents taught us kids ancient mythology as well, even while they told us not to play Pokemon.

I also have a group of RPers on my own subreddit who RP Twitch Plays Pokemon storylines with me, and some of them are Christians.

So it makes me uneasy trying to figure out this whole "occultism in Pokemon" stuff, because hey I know Pokemon isn't real anyway, but isn't it kind of desensitizing to kids to hand them an imaginary pet monster that delights in casting curses on people?

Actually, it seems like Pokemon is a metaphor for my life right now -- it's a beautiful world, but it's full of so much danger ready to jump out at me from the tall grass, and some of that danger looks deceptively huggable.

Please pray for me.
Please pray for me. I'm losing my sanity (and my lunch; yes, I have stomach problems as well).

Part of this may be demonic influence, through either Pokemon or the fear of Pokemon -- the problem is, I'm not sure which is (deceptive) spirituality or which is purely fantasy anymore.

Now, I don't want to give up Pokemon (I've met some cool friends through Twitch Plays Pokemon, for example), but right now, I may have to leave it behind whether it's demonic or not, because having an obsession with anything right now is messing with my ability to function as a human being.

The Pokemon: Echoed Voices project can be considered cancelled, as I simply can't keep up with it. Unfortunately, I'm afraid to say it on the board itself, because I've said it before and I feel sick about letting my friends down about it. But right now, I seriously don't think it can be helped.

Please pray for me. Whether you're the praying sort or not, PLEASE pray! Pray that God will give me clarity and soundness of mind!
So, thankfully, I managed to explain the situation to the Reddit admins, and they undid my shadowban on my Trollkitten account. I'll still have to wait until my TPP ban wears off to go there.

In other news, my laptop containing the rest of my Gatekeepers comics isn't working (at all), so I'll have to wait until it gets fixed to post any more updates. I'm currently on a computer borrowed from my dad.

But the best news is... my mom's stepmother just brought all four of us grandkids savings bonds, out of the blue. My biological sister was working at the credit union when said stepmother (step-grandmother?) came by, and since my sister didn't even know step-granny's name, she was pretty shocked!

So now I can afford the new computer I've needed for a while! Praise the Lord! Praise my stepgranny!

God bless you all!

-- Eureka
...twice. (Technically three times.)

Some of my friends believe that there is a group of people trying to get me banned from Reddit entirely. (One member, OfHyenas, has even changed his flair on Twitch Plays Pokemon to "The Wicked Witch Is Dead" upon my banning, which is horrible. Especially as another female member of the Twitch Plays Pokemon subreddit recently attempted suicide, and out of context that sounds even worse.)

I am currently trying to resolve the situation with the TPP mods and the Reddit admins. Please pray for me.
...for freaking out over a topic that I TOLD other people not to discuss in MY topic...

...but they did anyway...

...and the reason I told them NOT to bring it up in my topic was because I knew I would freak out about it.

HOW DISRESPECTFUL.

Now, I do agree that I was out of line in my extreme reaction. And I also admit that a good deal of the people who reacted probably meant well.

That still doesn't change the fact that I asked for the topic not to be brought up for a very good reason, and their ignoring my request only proved that the reason was legitimate.

Petition the moderators -- when someone says they don't want people to talk to them about something, PEOPLE SHOULD NOT TALK TO THEM ABOUT IT.

The petition: www.reddit.com/r/TTPloreplayce…

The TPP subreddit: www.reddit.com/r/twitchplayspo…
Reading the Ferguson reports, I'm glad to see that there's some honest balance there. Yes, the police department of Ferguson was indeed racist, and yet, yes, Officer Wilson was in danger of his life from Michael Brown's attack. (And yes, this post was delayed a bit, partially because I tend to take news reports with a grain of salt ever since the Ferguson event to begin with.)

Looking for balance and truth was actually the kind of point I intended to make in All Races Matter, although its text did point heavily towards pointing out the misdeeds of the protesters themselves. That likely resulted in the intended message being "lost in translation" for some people.

So... I do apologize for the unintended imbalance, although I still hate seeing the term "white privilege" thrown around on account that I didn't choose my race and neither did anyone else. Punishing someone by name-calling them for their race is, well, still racist. Always has been, always will be. (And my ignorance on certain subjects is not based solely on my race; it also stems from many other factors, such as my sheltered childhood, my Asperger's Syndrome, and my attempts to avoid certain situations that are triggers to me due to a combination of my sheltered childhood and my Asperger's Syndrome.)

And incidentally, I know that the content of one's attitude doesn't necessarily match the legitimacy of one's arguments. Still, as a loose cannon myself, I can tell you that if your tone is angry enough to infuriate me, that's not going to help me think logically about the argument. With that in mind, I have chosen to disable all comments on my "All Races Matter" piece, including previous comments, to prevent a certain regrettable and immaturely-communicated argument on both sides from biting me and the other party in the butt later on in our lives. We both need to be better than that, and I'm taking one step to make it water under the bridge.
Here's a good-cop/bad-cop story that you won't hear every day.

www.change.org/p/thomas-p-dina…

Now, I'd admit I've been skeptical about the ratio of bad-cop stories to good-cop stories. But when a police officer loses her job and her pension for stopping a fellow cop from choking an already-restrained suspect, and the other cop gets to keep his job for several more years and rack up a higher brutality track record, you know something's clearly wrong with the system.

news.vice.com/article/buffalo-…

Something definitely has to be done about this. Please sign the petition in the first link.