So right now, I'm gonna lay it to you straight. I have no idea if I'm ever going to finish my Pokemon Burst TTRPG homebrew that I've been planning for over a year now. I simply have no experience whatsoever in writing homebrew, and for something as complicated as Pokemon, it's probably way too complicated for a first project.
But at the same time... maybe it's a sunk-cost fallacy, but I really want to make SOMETHING out of this, y'know? I want to make something workable, something I can play with my friends without having to worry about it being too broken to work. But for the time being, I have absolutely no idea how to go about it.
I should probably bite the bullet and just ask for help developing it. But right now, I'm not even sure if it's worth it. The concept makes me feel irrationally nervous, but if the project wants any hope of actually succeeding, it's probably essential for me to have someone to help me.
Anyway. Just a ramble.
It's been a terrible year by anyone's standards, but if you're reading this, you still have a lot to be thankful for. How do I know that, you ask? Because if you're reading this, not only do you have Internet access, but you also have electricity, which is more than many people in third-world countries can attest. And if you have Internet access, you have a way of communicating with the people that you love even when you're in lockdown. Heck, the Internet gives us the ability to interact with people all over the world, people we've never seen in person and yet are so indelibly part of our lives in this brave new world of the 2020s.
What will the world look like in 2021? God only knows. I pray that it will be a better world, a healed world, medically, socially, politically, and spiritually. I pray that all people everywhere will learn to look past the labels that divide us and embrace the humanity that unites us. I pray that true liberty and justice FOR ALL will be a reality and not just something we say at the Pledge of Allegiance. I pray that people of all ages, races, genders, lifestyles, religions, and political parties will learn to accept each other as human beings and as worthy of respect. I pray that "X lives matter" would be taken to heart regardless of what the X stands for. Because, really, we all matter, don't we?
May God bless you all throughout this holiday season, and may He protect you from the insanity this year has wrought upon us.
(Also, if you want an update on the Pokemon Burst homebrew, let's just say it's been put on the back burner for a while because my motivation for working on it has dried up. Partially because I have so many other projects I'm working on, and partially because creating homebrew is HARRRRD, and so is 2020. I don't want to permanently shelf the project though, because I love it and I want to see it work. But please be patient.)
So for those of you who remember that I'm working on a homebrew Pokemon RPG involving the Burst mechanic, I've got good news and I've got bad news.
The good news is that I'm still working on it. The bad news is that due to balancing issues and having to tweak the mechanics further, the estimated time of arrival for the Kanto beta has been delayed from Holiday 2020 to somewhere around Summer 2021. I'm definitely looking forward to sharing this project with the world, but I want to make sure the beta is playable before I release it, so I'm going to have to ask you all to be patient while I restat about two hundred and fifty Pokemon species (counting evos, preevos, Megas, G-Maxes, and regional forms/evolutions of the original 151 Kanto Pokemon, plus Meltan and Melmetal because they appeared in LGPE and I really like them a lot).
Please understand.
A Pokemon blog, to be precise. Titled "Don't Get Me Started," because seriously, don't get me started on Pokemon. I spent all Friday writing the first article, and even some of Saturday, because I couldn't stop myself. I just had to.
https://nuzlockeforums.com/forum/index.php?threads/dont-get-me-started-a-pokemon-blog.19583/
The first article is on the Bulbasaur line. Yes, I fully intend on blogging my way through the entire Pokedex. No, that's not going to be solely what the blog is about. I have several other article ideas, but as to what they are, you'll just have to wait and seeeeeeee...!
While I support the right for black people to live without fear (as I support everybody's right to live without fear), in times of protest, I wish to remind you all that, for reasons I'm not sure anybody really knows for sure, black people are statistically more vulnerable to COVID-19 than average.
If you're going to protest, protest responsibly. Your life matters, others' lives matter, and I don't want anyone to get sick and die from a virus as a direct result of a protest meant to protect the lives of innocents.
Anything else I could say has already been said. Stay safe, stay calm, stay informed. God bless you all.